I get
taken back to the very day my life changed forever everyday; it's not easy
to live the fact that my baby, my angel is gone and never to return to my
arms, never to see him smile, they're all memories. On May 10,03 I figured
I was going to have a good day, figuring since it was Mother's Day, I was
excited and looking forward to spending time with my boys, it's a day every
mom looks forward to, right? But I was WRONG!! I looked forward to the morning
kisses and hugs my baby would give me, the big enormous smiles he gave, just
the simple touch of his soft tiny lovable hands, who could ask for more?
That's not the greet I got that morning, I woke up to find my son layin in
his bed, looking as if he was sleeping, but he wasn't, he was already in heaven
watching over me and his older brother when I found him wrapped in the inner
cord of the blinds, so innocent as can be. Trying to keep calm as I cut the
cord from his neck and carried him in my arms asking God "Why my baby,
why my poor,innocent child?" Feeling his cold body against me I held
him for dear life thinking why not me, I lived long enough, I was ready to
go.
There's nothing that can be done now that can change anything from that day,
all the could of's, should of's are all done and over with now, but one thing
that will never change is the love I have for my son that grows stronger and
stronger everyday, he will never be forgotten he's always in our hearts and
only time will bring us together again. Love you always and forever Xavier!!!
God bless all of us whom have had to go through that terrible and tragic experience
of losing the one most and important gift of life.
